The kiss of winter approaches xi.xix

In my heart I have always been a twin

In the womb, in my mothers arms, as a sister

Together I feel a deep sense of peace

With the constancy of sunrises and sunsets, my mind reaches out to find this sense of other, this sense of 'you'

Under clouds of ephemeral loneliness

I dream a sleepless slumber of endless baby blue

Spring, Summer & Fall come and go

A blanketed frozen ground

The silence of falling snow

Snow falls upon my frozen pink cheeks

and for a moment I can almost hear your heartbeat

For a moment love lives beside me

and within me

Spring comes, you're gone again

Gone too soon, my deepest love and closest friend

Her absence is like the sky, spread all over everything.” C.S. Lewis, A Grief Observed.